(for those who don't know this is "our song" and Gareth sang it to me at the wedding - I knew nothing about it until the very moment he started to sing)
I wrote this a year ago today:
Well, it’s been quite the emotional rollercoaster but in 13 hours I’ll be married!!!!!
I wish I had something more profound to say but I don’t…. I love him SOOO MUCH I cannot believe I get to marry him! Im going to be his wife and I’m convinced I’ll cry right through the day. I feel kind of nervous because I know everyone will be looking at me ALL DAY and while I now that sounds silly coming from a drama student… this is just so personal a thing to share! I should go to sleep but I’m just painfully aware of how little I document my life these days especially since this is all so important. I have no words left though…. I just love him!!!
PS – I suppose I should add this since I’ll never get the chance to again. I have loved being Mandy Price – I am so proud of my family. I’m proud of the friendship and love I know I have received and given as Mandy Price… It’s not always been an easy ride but MY GOD iit’s been beautiful. I think the hardest thing about getting married is giving up my name. I don’t feel at all scared about giving up my freedom.. in so many ways.. Gareth IS my freedom but I have loved and lived that name for more than 22 years now and I am just so so sad to think it will never be mine again. It’s like losing an old friend or a favourite teddy finally falling to pieces and I’m more sad than I think anyone will ever realise.. still though…. You know what…… He is SOOOO more than worth it ;-) So old friend… for the final time this is Mandy Price signing out (hahaha I can’t even write that where I know noone will read it without cringing… geeky moo GEEEEEEEEK) Goodnight xxx
This time one year ago I was in my best friends house surrounded by the people who held my hand on every step of the journey to that life changing moment - my wedding! In that evening we bought the flowers (as in found and purchased.. I hadn't thought ahead too well) we made the little name pebbles for the guests, we watched girly films and we ate our favourite sandwiches, there were tears of course both of nostalgia and of laughter. Mandy Price spent her last single day with THE most fabulous people that God ever made and a year down the line whatever else has changed - they're still here and I love them more than any one of them can EVER comprehend!!
Girlies if I didn't say it before let me say it now. Alison, Lisa, Adele, Becca and Becky Without you there would have been no wedding there wouldn't even have been a me! I owe you everything I have and everything I am and I hope for every single second you're alive.. you know just how much I love you!!
March 19th 2005
I could write pages and pages about what this day meant to me, I could describe it in minute detail but I know I'd never do it justice. To those of you who were there - Thank you
to those of you who have been there for me since - thank you too
To Gareth - Baby baby gentle beautiful boy, more gorgeous than all of nature, more warm than the sun and more than I could ever have dreamed would be mine:
I, ChubbyMoo take you Tveeedeyveen, to be my husband, to have and to hold from this day forward; for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love, cherish, and obey till death us do part, according to God's holy law; and this is my solemn vow
I have never meant anything more sincerily than I meant those sacred words on that unforgetable day.
