2006-04-10 - 7:58 p.m.

HI!!

I have had over 100 hits from blogmad and not one single comment? I knew people wouldn't think much of this it's not intelligent enough and it's way too.. I don't know it's lacking in substance!! I did hope though.. I hoped for maybe one new friend.. just one little addition for me to gush over and love and lavish internet attention on.. but alas.. it's not to be! think you lot can handle the overflow of love yourselves?

What is good though is that of all those people not one of them insulted me or left a mean comment and that's great!! isn't it?? I mean I've seen some pretty mean stuff said on other peoples diaries and i've never had any abuse.

Maybe I'm not so unlikeable afterall

*content*

I spent a sizeable portion of my weekend making videos for Ali-Wah my beautiful beautiful bestest friend who lives too far away most of the time and who wasn't feeling well. We have a shared humour that spans back decades and so even MAKING the clips had me absolutely wetting myself with amusement at completely unamusing things. You probably won't understand why this is funny and maybe some of you will simply think me weird... but you know what...

Who WANTS to be normal anyway

it's not for anyone but ali and I know she thinks it's funny even though she could only hear the sound.. so here you go Ali.. the moving picture part 3 [the rest is even sillier and I'm not brave enough to have it seen yet) of what you heard on friday night!! I LOVE YOU

(what makes this funny to me is that to be in a light enough space for it to film properly I had to sit facing my window onto the street and people could SEE me doing this)

Thank you Ali for truly 100% understanding every single part of me (and my humour) and for being home for easter!! I can't wait to spend time with you!

Also this weekend I got some real quality time with Lisa which is fabulous because we've not really been able to do that for so long. We went shopping, we visited Aunty Nora in hospital and then we CREATED stuff until about 2am!!

Shopping with Lisa has always been an experience... I mean the girl LOVES clothes (shoes mostly) and for years I whined and moaned and sometimes point blank refused to go shopping with her but you know as I've grown I've come to really cherish the magic that is a shopping trip with Lisa. She picks things up that don't even look like clothes they just look like rags or weirdness or just awful they look awful but the instant she steps into them they are transformed.. HONESTLY. Lisa just has an EYE for beauty and the longer I know her the less jealous I get and the more I learn to simply enjoy HER beauty!

A not so easy part of our quality time was the time we spent with aunty Nora.. I mean don't get me wrong she herself was doing really well but I thought at one point I would actually burst with compassion for my tiny delicate Lisa shaped flower. Her voice was happy and jolly and she cheered Aunty Nora along on all of her suggestions.. but every now and again there would be this flicker across her face of such sadness. I know Lisa doesn't like hospitals because they frighten her.. the thought of people she loves being ill scares her and where possible she tries to pretend it's not possible and hides from it. Those minutes we spend in that hospital on saturday just about quadrupled my respect for Lisa because while to me when someones not well I want to be all up in their face making sure they're feeling my love and such.. that to Lisa means accepting that they are mortal and can be taken from her. Lisa has always been brave and I've always known it.. but seeing it in action in such a big way really hit me right here

*indicates heart*

I love you Leesy I love you more than you can ever understand and I'm proud to be your friend!!

Anyway.. although I have lots to say I have to go make tea before I die of hunger and Gareth just plain wastes away... in my next entry I must remember to tell you about

Becca and craig and how greatful I am to them for their friendship especially recently!!

My little sister and how AMAZINGLY intelligent she is

The big office move

Gareth

oh lots.. I have lots to tell you

for now though..

it's EATING TIME!!

lovelovelove

x x x

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