2006-04-29 - 3:38 p.m.

(an almost derelict builsing I once worked in)

Even in this old, disgustingly dirty ramshackle building there was a specific time of day when it looked beautiful. I always meant to take a picture of the exact moment but when I finally got around to attempting to capture it - the time had passed and the moment was lost. I found it again at different times of day but NEVER when I was looking for it (or had a camera at hand)

I can't describe the exact effect because I don't wish to ruin the memory of the image (stored in my head) by putting substandard words to it - I wish I could share it with you. A similar phenomenon occurs with my thoughts.. I have these dazzling thoughts, insightful comments and the second I attempt to capture them by filling this little white box they vanish and I simple revert to my standard - "no time to update have some pictures I love you"

Sometimes I feel like my brain is wrapped in a really big duvet.. really comfy and warm and sleepy.. so sleepy that it not longer wishes to get up and DO anything. I'm a sucker for safety and I'm lazy - I know this needs to change!

I wish I could just pick you up and put you INTO my head for a while so you'd truly understand what I feel, what I think... HOW MUCH I LOVE - because there simply aren't enough words to share it any other way!

KITTYFRIEND I GOT MY POST AND I COULD NOT LOVE IT OR YOU MORE!!!! YOU ARE INFINATELY PRECIOUS TO ME AND THERE IS A PACKAGE - not completed yet - HERE THAT I WILL WING OVER TO YOU SOON!!!!

x x x

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