2006-06-04 - 8:19 p.m.

Howdy all

I really wanted to write a mind blowing spectacular for you tonight but it's about 2 hours AFTER the time I intended to go to bed ( disclaimer: - I am in ENGLAND and it was NOT 8:19 when I wrote this it was 11:19 which still isn't that late but it's better than 8:19!! haha) ) and I have to get up in fewer hours than is fair for a growing moo (in my opinion)

*sigh*

Plus you know as usual I haven't done any of the washing up or the washing or the tidying and my ass will be kicked if I've not done it before the smooshicoochiehusbandypoo's gets home! I love him a LOT but WOW I sometimes think he loves me second to a tidy house! :p (I'm kidding of course he loves me best cleanliness doesn't perform oral sex)

This weekend and last week have been fabulous though busy. I feel like I'm getting to the stage now where there are about 7 different things I SHOULD be doing at any given time and still I want to take on more because I want to spend more time making people happy. Unfortunately the majority of my time is spent earning money to pay my mortgage - which though necissary is not nearly as rewarding as making someone smile. There are so many people that I love and I don't feel like any of them get enough dedicated MOOTIME - I'm sure they're fine without a moodose I'm not saying that because I have a massive ego and think they can't get by without me it's just that I WANT to people I care about to know that NOTHING is too big or too small that they can't bring it to me. I need them to know just how very deeply I care about them (I mean you too) and their lives and that I am interested in ALL of it - I'm just a bit too busy to show it sometimes. There are so many of you here that I don't get time to comment on or email - some of you aren't even on my buddy list because it's full and I've not had time to make an alternative (I'm working on it)

In mundane uninteresting though personal news my AWFUL skin is starting to clear up though to balance that my weight has ROCKETED up - I hate saying things like that it's all so shallow but if I pretended I didn't care about it I'd be a liar and I'd rather be shallow and pathetic than be a liar! Had to go through the ORDEAL of clothes shopping last week and have to do it again since I only bought HALF of what I needed out of sheer frustration at the lack of things for people my size - it's not like I'm huge it's just I'm not the RIGHT proportions. I understand that they have to make clothes that fir the highest percentage of people so I'm not disputing that I know the fashion world doesn't even NEARLY revolve around me (though with my ever growing ass I'm surprised the whole bloody universe doesn't succumb to my gravitational force) I just wish I could make my own clothes instead and save myself the confidence slaying that clothes shopping in normal shops has become. I have PMT had you guessed that yet? haha I have been bursting into tears over NOTHING in my catch up on blogs today - makes me glad to be home alone!! weird moo!

I got a weird text earlier tonight (during my MAMMOTH catch up with Craig) from a number that isn't a real number so I can't text it back but all it said was:

"Hi Mandy... You are so fit!"

I don't even have a GUESS as to who that is from so I can only pressume it is one of my friends being silly. fit is not a word people tend to associate with me.. neither in the sporty not the sexy sense.. so... I don't know.. plus I think it's only bitish people who would use that word to mean attractive no? Any of you know? I don't want whoever it is to think I'm ignoring them but I can't reply to the number my phone says sent it. Highly confusing.

Anyway though as usual I have a THOUSAND more thing to say I also have a MILLION things I need to do before I go to sleep and DAMN do I need to sleep!

Lovelovelove
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