2006-06-26 - 10:14 p.m.

I have been utterly blown away by you all – I know I said that last entry too but I really truly have and I’m working on a special way to thank you but with me being rubbish at finding free time AND the fact that I still have a pile of Christmas cards for half of you… it may be some time but in doing it EVEN if you never see it – I am expressing my love for you and… yes what I need you to do to help me is email me on info@mandymoo.com and send me photo’s of yourself or if you’re not comfortable with that send me pics of the things you feel REPRESENT you or that you represent whatever.

I’ve not been able to respond to your comments individually because there are about four pages I want to say to each of you and since I don’t have time to do that for every single one of you I would feel mean doing some of you now then others later so I’m MAKING my reply instead! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I REALLY REALLY DO!!

Gareth is just in the other room right now falling asleep cutely in front of the football. (bloody world cup bain of my life bleh yack fooey etc) He’s been ABNORMALLY lovely recently – not in relation to me he’s not really changed in that respect (but he’s already lovely so that’s ok) but anyway – yeah just the way he’s become suddenly aware of every negative reaction or bad comment or just…. I don’t know I suppose you’d have to know him to know what a WONDERFUL thing that is. I love Gareth you all know that and he knows It EVEN more – I don’t wish to change any part of him not even a tiny bit because I love him COMPLETELY. Since we’ve been together we’ve both grown up a lot in some ways because it’s been enough years that we’re simply older and in other ways we’re older because we’ve had to GROW UP but he just AAAAH * makes can’t find the word noises * I just can’t believe that he can be any greater a person than he already is and yet day by day he says or does things that I think will actually CRIPPLE me with love!! I can’t get my head around how he can be a REAL human sometimes I love him so much and at the moment it’s reached some weird ridiculous pinnacle of fabulousness that makes me want to just kiss him every time he breathes!!!

I’m sure he thinks I’m weird (in fact I know he thinks it but that’s part of why I love him) but for a few nights now we’ve gone to bed and just talked and I just LOVE being the one he talks to about the REAL stuff in his head. I LOVE the way his mind works and I just love him… it seems weird to love someone SO MUCH but then to find room on an almost hourly basis to love him that little bit more.. who am I kidding “a little bit more” I love him double with every second that passes and every time I think it HAS to stop somewhere – he proves me wrong by making me fall in love with a whole new part of him.

Being Gareths wife KICKS ASS!!! Or rather is RAAAAWKS! (him being a supposed rockgod hahahahaha)

anyway – I’m being an utterly crappy wife by sitting here typing when I could be making use of the cuddle time or doing something to really make him happy

..I’d put wink wink there and pretend to be being suggestive but we all know that I mean CLEANING!!

Haha I love him

And I love YOU

And I LOVE BEING ME!!

x x x

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