2006-08-17 - 9:58 a.m.

OK OK OK OK OKAAAAAAAAAAAAAY already an update!!

Now where did I leave off – Shortly before I posted the unclepaulsweddingandbeachentry I received a note from Enola which said:

“I love you, and I miss you, and I'm tired too. And *hugs* for you. I wish I had money right now, I have been signed off work and could come and see you if I did xxx”

To which I of course hurriedly replied

“there is a kitten crawling on my foot and chewing it quite scarily like it's a huge monster haha cuteness and pain all at once a fun combination!! anyway.,.... yes if you want to come see us money is NOT an object there are many ways we can work around financial restraints!! such is my desire to have you meet Gareth and Gareth meet you!! Xxx”

There then followed a run of emails which resulted in a huge run of AMAZINGLY convenient coincidences which would be boring and difficult to explain but endlessly fabulous for me BECAUSE from that simple note from Enola we managed to escalate the situation to all kinds of greatness finally ending in Enola arriving at my home the next afternoon. It was all so rushed and hurried but ran so smoothly and I ACTUALLY thought I might EXPLODE from how random and exciting it all was. Unfortunately for Enola the last minute nature of her arrival meant there was little we could do to change our existing somewhat boring plans so effectively all she really did in her time here was watch us run around stressy and try to get a million things done that were all overdue. (she even got to see me and Gareth argue about how unorganised I am and who was responsible for losing the marriage certificate) Other exciting activities my dearest Noli had the pleasure in partaking of included food shopping, babysitting and all kinds of random sitting around doing not a lot at all. Still though we did have some adventures and even if we hadn’t it was FABULOUS to let her be part of our lives in as raw a form as is possible (it might not be pretty but it’s real)

We took her to the Baltic and the beach and we even had a mini(INCREDIBLY heartbreaking) encounter with a lost lady addicted to drugs… which I want to recount to you but I’ll finish all the blabbery nothings first!

Most of all out of the visit we got a real chance to talk about stuff because we’re both so busy and limited in our computer time and there were so many things we had never had time to really discuss and it was nice to REALLY get inside each others heads on certain opinions. I actually left BEFORE Enola was even awake on the Monday (I was flying to London for work and she had been plied with alcohol all night at Gareths gig) It’s the little things about Enola that make me love her (well if I’m honest it’s EVERYTHING about her that makes me love her but hey) for example knowing she would not be awake in time to say goodbye properly before my flight she left me a note - a note so sweet and beautiful and heart warming that I actually took it with me and still have it inside my bible now!

Enola is my babysister – a frightfully intelligent babysister but still that’s how my heart responds to her. She seemed to slip so seamlessly into our world and by that I don’t mean she changed herself to be like us.. she can’t be like us because we’re all so different from each other but there is a place for her in our group and she found it so effortlessly. There is so much of our group and of our area that I didn’t get a chance to show her though it’s looking more and more like there may be almost infinite time in the future to do so.

So THAT was Enola’s visit and now you all know it’s safe (if somewhat boring) please feel free to start arriving in droves so I can spend the same kind of quality time with each of you too!!

So in the midst of all of the mahem I had all KINDS of ridiculous problems getting ID so that I could fly from Newcastle to London (I offered to go by car but my boss WANTED me to fly and the company were paying so… yeah) I won’t bore you further with the many adventures of Moo and the lack of proof that she exists but lets just say I managed to get ID LITERALLY with a DAY to spare – much to Gareth’s UTTER exasperation poor poor love he acted as a free taxi/sounding off board a LOT more than he should have had to that week! I do love that boy! Anyway yeah London wasn’t anything you’d enjoy hearing about I just did work stuff met our biggest clients went out for a meal and MANY drinks with them!! I even managed to sneak in a quick night with Ali – who came all the way out to the first hotel I stayed in and spent the night with me WHICH WAS EXCELLENT – it made the whole journey worth it. The second hotel we stayed in was an experience in itself I LOVED it it was everything I WANT a hotel to be – it was weird it was fun and quirky and my boss was appaled that such a place made any business but I actually intend to go back for all of the reasons he hated it!! Haha I shall take my girls and we shall make it our own!

Since I got back from work I have had lots of people visiting our office who have wanted to do a mixture of shadowing and other such interfering stuff that stops me getting online or skiving BOO HISS etc!! I don’t know that I’ll ever have a job that is truly challenging I’m exploring whether or not I care – do I want a stable financially secure family life or do I want to selfishly pursue a job that I find rewarding. The truth is I don’t care about anything enough that I would take the financial support of a steady job away from my household. What matters to me is that GARETH is happy and yes I know money isn’t everything and those who know us KNOW that we MORE than know how to live without ANY but we have struggled for so long and having my steady reliable wage coming in every month is starting to get us back on our feet. I’m not pretending for a minute I’m the main wage earner… Gareth gets paid waaaay more than me and there are few jobs I could be paid higher than him but my wage is steady constant and we need it. Gareth doesn’t understand this at all it destroys his brain that I am working in a job like this instead of pursuing a CAREER in theatre – but as much as I love theatre.. I have seen the dedication needed to make it and I could NEVER make it more important in my life than my husband (or my clan) and because of that I could never REALLY succeed. I know that Gareth knows that but I think he feels responsible for being the THING I love more than theatre and therefore the thing I love enough to put first (at least for now I’m not saying there will NEVER be a time when I can work somewhere rewarding it’s just that time is not now) Stupid thing is he is so very much worth it I LOVE my life I love being his wife and for all the moaning I may do about my job I don’t REALLY care so much. Why would I be bothered what job I do when I get to come home to my soulmate every night? The highest paid most rewarding job in the world would be NOTHING to me if I didn’t have him so for now at least (and for the foreseeable future) The only job title I am even remotely bothered about is “MRS WILLIAMS” it’s not a well paid job and it’s bloody hard work but I would sooner die than relinquish that title!!

So this has quickly become the longest entry in the world and I STILL have more for you – videos and photo’s and stories galore!! For now though…

Just know that I love you I love the security and the support you give me here in my online corner of the world and I love feeling like I’m part of your lives!

lovelovelove

x x x

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