2006-10-13 - 10:10 a.m.
So then… oh scrumdiddlyuptious ones how goes it? How be you all on this most glorious of days?
I’m sleepy but I think it’s an air-con-induced tiredness – anyone else suffer from that? Air con does nasty things to me it makes my throat close up.. seriously ring me most days at work and I’ll sound like I’ve been chewing on sandpaper it’s not at all pleasant or attractive but hey… as long as we’re spreading the germs on the whole building evenly about the place and constantly switching between FREEZING and MELTING (there’s an AIRCONWAR going on in this office) haha it’s a lovely day when the worst thing you have to complain about is the air con in your office
*contented noises*
I’m still sort of behind on entries so if I’ve not left you notes and such please don’t feel unloved. Every time I get online I end up with about 600000 windows open and I forget who has had comments and who hasn’t.. you’ve all been crazy mad busy updating so it’s taking me forever to catch up. I’ve missed you all GAZILLIONS!!
The past few weeks have been unexciting at work but then I suppose that’s what I want really my REAL life is exciting enough work is for earning pennies for now and I’m happy with that until I can progress my career in the direction I’m planning. One thing you might be interested in is that a photographer came in to take evil cheesey pictures of us which have now been forwarded about the whole company and plastered about the intranet and basically have almost caused us to DIE FROM SHAME!!! I mean REALLY though…. If you were a professional photographer and THIS
…was the best you could come up with…… just… NO!!! it’s so bad we both look awful and it’s completely unnatural and cheesey and about 600000 kinds of WRONG! And this was the best one of about a million shots in various poses
It is funny though!! hahahahaha
Oh well it amused me… anyway in the photo with me is the other corporate lovely - her name is Adele and she feeds me constantly… so of course I LOVE HER!!
Aaaaw just got a really cute text message from Gareth completely unprovoked and for no reason other than because he loves me – is it wrong that I can’t stop smiling? He just rang me as well * gushes * seriously to any of you out there in love DON’T be scared to make a fool of yourself for love…. It’s only when you put yourself in a place where you are left completely vulnerable in every way that you can REALLY REALLY feel what it is to be loved COMPLETELY.
Just to love someone with absolutely EVERY fibre of your being to love them so that it becomes an inconvenience and eats into every other area of your life… to love them in an all consuming all encompassing passion that – I don’t even know the words… DON’T BE AFRAID to love WHOLEHEARTEDLY – it is SO MUCH WORTH IT! I know I talk about love like it’s the most easy thing in the world I KNOW it isn’t I’ve not had an easy time of it nor do I think the future will be easy but I DO know that love is worth every single ounce of the pain that goes with it.
Not just loving your husband or wife or girlfriend or boyfriend but loving in general is HARD work and sometimes the people you love WON’T love you back or at least not in the same way though it’s worth remembering:
“just because someone doesn’t love you in the way you want them to… does not mean they don’t love you with ALL that they are”
love is different to every person, between every person, it changes, it morphs, it grows, it wanes, it fades. but it NEVER dies… I don’t care what anyone says – love - like energy (any physicists here?) doesn’t die or stop it just changes.
Good GRACIOUS I’m having a nice little ramble here aren’t I?
I just want you to feel hopeful I know how hard it is to feel lost and unloved and scared – but don’t give up there is so much love out there honestly truly there is. I hope all of you know that whatever small part you may have played in my life (so far) that you are IMPORTANT to me.. every little conversation, note, email or any other contact… we are CONSTANTLY changing the lives of others just by existing and I could not wish for a better group of life changing moolingloves!!
LOVE ROCKS
…in all its forms
go tell someone you love them go on go go now tell them
I LOVE YOU
lovelovelove
x x x
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