Why, why are You still here with me Didn't You see what I've done? In my shame I want to run and hide myself But it's here I see the truth I don't deserve You
[Chorus:] But I need You to love me, and I I won't keep my heart from You this time And I'll stop this pretending that I can Somehow deserve what I already have I need You to love me
I, I have wasted so much time Pushing You away from me I just never saw how You could cherish me 'Cause You're a God who has all things And still You want me
Your love makes me forget what I have been Your love makes me see who I really am Your love makes me forget what I have been
Yes it's a bit EMO and teenagery but you know what those lyrics so accurately sum up my whole life.. with God first and foremost but not just Him...
I have been blessed by so much love and more often than not I have done nothing to deserve it - in fact I have done things that mean I really shouldn't be ALLOWED it but I AM LOVED I get emails all of the time from people who've happened by my musings here over the years and who wonder how I can be so constantly overflowing with love for people (and they're not always nice about that either) the truth is when you have experienced UNCONDITIONAL love... it changes you!!
I wish that for all of you... wherever you find that love - I wish you at least one moment in your life where you know what it TRULY is to be completely accepted and not just loved despite your flaws but loved WITH them and even FOR them each one of you is unique each one of you is beautiful and each one of you should know that I will never judge you because I just want to know you and be your friend and love you - I know that sounds weird and stalkery but there are people here who I would never even have KNOWN of or had any reason to cross in my "life path" but through meeting you and through reading your thoughts/feelings/ramblings I have been given so much insite into just how INDREDIBLY beautiful humans can be.
i've learned so much from you all and whenI say I love you
I REALLY MEAN IT!!!
.....and for the record I'm not BRAGGING about how loved I am it's not like I'm massively popular I never have been but the people who do love me.... they REALLY love me and I am so so so grateful for that!!
