2007-03-11 - 6:53 p.m.

OH CRIKEY BEJEEBUS I AM SO TIRED!!!

Anyone who knows me probably thinks of "I'm tired" as something of a catchphrase of mine = for years I suffered from the most AWFUL insomnia and was lucky to manage 3 hours sleep a night AT BEST and now that my body WILL sleep I have no time for such luxuries!! hehe! I go about my life in a perpetual state of semi conciousness I'm convinced I leave half of my brain in bed every morning. Doesn't really make sense to be so tired because the LEAST sleep I'm getting now is about 5 hours and that used to be SO much MORE than enough maybe it's because my jobs boring as hell but I just can't wake up anymore - I think all day about how long it is until I can crawl into bed with a book and just slip into that dozey not-quite-awake-not-yet-asleep place. MMMM that's a GOOOOD place!

The HOUSE buying stuff got into CRAZY areas of stress last week and I reacted in a very physical way which scared me (shaking with frustration lots of tear etc etc) but Gareth REALLY came through for me... does that happen with you Moolings who are part of a couple? Whenever ONE of us if stressed the other will have a strange calm and sense of peace about the whole thing.. it's very balancing and he really surpassed all of my expectations of him last week I LOVE MY HUSBAND SO MUCH! In the midst of it all I discovered what I'd know all along in my heart.. that nothing is REALLY that much of a big deal if I have him beside me.. and I do! Once I'd remembered that everything else seemed to slip into place too which was fabulous - there's a long way to go but how can I not enjoy the journey with such an amazing companion?

We seem to be going through one of those phases where we feel like every step forward is following by a severe and painful SHOVE back but we're sticking close to God and each other and we're happy so EAT THAT STRESSY STUFF!!! EAT MY ARSE!!

haha

i'm such a lady!

I think I shall end this hear because I'm absolutely truly truly so tired that I'm getting that weird sicky feeling and BY GOLLY do I ache!

Maybe I'm just getting old!!!!

:oO

It's been IMPOSSIBLE to get any internet time of late - I'm going to stick to an entry a week as MUCH as I can but I cannot get through the 200 diaries I've amassed as buddies over the years.. please know that I love you though and as usual.. email me - I LOVE YOU diddymoo@gmail.com

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